it's been a really, really rough week ): so many bad things happened. and its so tiring too. with mid years drawing sooo close i can just cry ):
aih.
anyway, on friday, it was quite an unusual day.. rugby jc league was held in my school that day. so you can see all other colleges present and all the tan, buffed up girls in striking jerseys doing 3 man ruck or laterally passes, with sweat glittering under the sun. it was kinda scary, and our seniors were (of course) more ready than ever! (:
basically we played against millenia institute first, and our seniors won 2-1 ! woohoo! :DD
and i was actually planning to go home after that, but i am just so lazy to move and pack my stuff blabla so i stayed at the field and played abit. later on, had dinner with the rest of the truggers (touch ruggers) (:
i know this is confusing but actually when we say touch rugby, we call it touch, touch rug or trug most of the time (: so when i short formed it please dont be confused!
anyway, next day, saturday was sports carnival! hahhaa its so much fun to cheer for running truggers and have fun with the rest of the team, while we stole a jug of 100plus hoho (:
okay this is a very lousy post lah i know.. not much of a content but. hahaha okay i shall go study for my maths test! *determined face*
on a sidenote, my back is getting more painful now....... yes im very very sad ):
ok a proper post soon k, bye!
May 13, 2012
April 30, 2012
what we used to have.
So.. i just came back from school. I haven't even showered yet. But i sorta.. have quite a bit to say. See, i dunno how long this post will go, probably quite short, or maybe longer. But, i'm just gonna write and see where my ink flows..
story starts when my good friend in college announced that she's gotten a schoalrship to NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts). It's is basically a super prestigious fine arts scholarship, and i'm just damn happy and proud of her (: so i heard of her, and suddenly there was like this leap in my heart, i mean, she must have feel exactly how i felt like 3 years ago. happy, excited, and relieved. I mean, thousands and thousand of people as good as you, if not ten times better than you, competing on the same ground. AND YOU GOT IT! woohoo!
except mine was a little more different, mine was an academic scholarship. and mine was just like a sudden change from malaysia to singapore, from hey-yo-i-got-an-A to hey-yo-i-passed kinda thing. i guess i wasn't allow any transition period, to cope with both academic expectations and emotional wellbeing. I was just like, sorta sitting on a seesaw, and suddenly a big fat obese guy just decided to jump on it and boom, i flew to the mountain without any pre-notice.
and so, i struggled the starting period of my secondary life la. my family was so worried, and they were just so afraid that i am too stressed bla bla. and my point arrives: i swear that i hate parry hall (my previous hostel) for life. and i vowed to never return there. And i was right, i hated that place quite alot, cos i've had a terrible time there. Many bad things happened, and i told my teacher mentor, but she kinda doesn't believe me.. so i was quite upset. blahhh . not the point.
so i was just having a bad bad time even during O levels. and because i wasn't very healthy, and i was just emotionally unstable, i screwed up my O levels. (ok i didnt really did THAT badly but it's close enough)
I was damn damn sad lah, the few nights after i've gotten my scholarship, my mom was in singapore and i just couldn't bear it, i stayed out with her. And i will now courageously admit it, i just kept crying and crying and crying. I've never cried so much in years, but yeahp. Just keep crying.
(side track abit, i was damn damn happy i got into my college now. I purposely chose this college and i made the right choice, i'm just so happy in college, i totally transformed, and for the first time in 3 years, i feel like i'm living a normal life)
SO, from then on, i blamed parry hall for everything. It was because of all the shits i've gone through with this particular person, who pushed me all the way to the edge of emotional break down. screw that, i'm living a good life without her so yup. (: NOW, i admit lah, i'm just blaming parry for everything, but it just doesnt give me a very good impression la. cos it's the place where i've been through the most hardships in 17 years. (except for those times when i was in standard 5 and standard 6). bottom line, i just couldn't get use to the transition and all the stuffs.
-
yesterday, we were having lunch, karjun, wanfen, few of us parrians. and we suddenly came up with an idea, Project Parry 527! It's basically for all parrians , left Parry or not, to return to our first home in singapore on 27/5/2012, before this place is demolished, to live another evening like a parrian, just.. live it. Nothing fancy, but just to reminisce those old times that we will never get back anymore. C'mon, parry is gonna be demolished. gone forever.
then it struck me. I missed parry. no matter how much i hated it, i lived there for 2 years. and it's so damn significant because it's the first 2 years of my life on this island. so many significant things have happened in my life and yes, i missed it.
I miss, the most, the study hall. It is where i go every single day , to study, to talk to people, and everything. That place just brings back so many memories! It used to be the most crowded place during exam periods! It just hurts so much to see that parry is gonna be demolished soon, and the number of boarders still staying there is like, a quarter of the number 3 years ago? It's really really very upsetting. It just hurts to walk in there and realize that there's no one there anymore, where it once was the most crowded place ever. it hurts alot, you know.
the canteen. it's where we have our meals (duh). during sec 4, especially, we only allow ourselves approx 30mins to eat cos we needa study and all. throughout the day, we're just having no life la. and for me personally, i look forward to meal times the most. With wanfen and karjun. cos we will always talk alot of shit, and laugh and laugh at each other. and it's just so much fun. when we finish eating, boom, time to study again. but all the good memories in sec 4, canteen lah. ahha. it was also where i spend the night with my batchmates to make a pillow for our teacher mentor for teacher's day ! (: nice rightttt. ahhaha :D it's just, awesome!
the field. it's where i used to play soccer with my seniors! HAHA it's just so much fun. (: I used to look forward to friday and weekend's evening when we get to play soccer together! eventho i suck at soccer big time! It's so nice to play with the indonesian seniors cos they always let us score, :D :D and it kinda make me feel that the main point of the soccer game is to bond with us, and it's just so so nice :') it's also where we have alot of hostel events, the field is just the place la, for alot of games. and it's just so homely, the vast vast field. :D
special mentions to Reunion Soiree! It's 2011 Graduating Batch graduating event (: And it's one of the best event i've experienced. Aaron, my president of Parry Hall committee made my last experience in parry hall as an emcee so contented. he tried his best to plan the most celebrity-like entry for my partner and i. And the feeling is just so good, when all your juniors plan an event for you, the seniors, and you get to be part of the crew, for one last time. & it is one of the good events i've emceed, other than Fame. simply because i made my last contribution to parry hall, just the way i like it, and just the way i do best.
SO! parry hall, after all, it's still my home for 2 significant years of my life. it doesn't matter how many terrible experiences have pushed me away from this home, i just know that there will always be as much, if not more good experiences and good friends that will pull me back to this home. and i will miss this place. too much, true, i mean i've had the suckiest and shittiest moment there, but it forces me to grow up. you know, i'm like an ugle, out of shape pie dough, and parry hall is like a pie moulder that uses the most terrifying experiences to force me to be in shape, cut off all the hideous extra dough on me, moulds me into a better pie, fills me with more fillings, and send me into the oven, under high pressure, i'm obliged to be a better pie (person); (:
and after all the shaping and moulding, i'll become a pie that people will wanna buy! :D hahaha(:
ready, fellow parrians? let's return home!
27th may, we've locked your schedule. Your evening is parry's. Live it like a parrian, for one last evening.
yay!
kay done. hahaha showering, bye! (:
story starts when my good friend in college announced that she's gotten a schoalrship to NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts). It's is basically a super prestigious fine arts scholarship, and i'm just damn happy and proud of her (: so i heard of her, and suddenly there was like this leap in my heart, i mean, she must have feel exactly how i felt like 3 years ago. happy, excited, and relieved. I mean, thousands and thousand of people as good as you, if not ten times better than you, competing on the same ground. AND YOU GOT IT! woohoo!
except mine was a little more different, mine was an academic scholarship. and mine was just like a sudden change from malaysia to singapore, from hey-yo-i-got-an-A to hey-yo-i-passed kinda thing. i guess i wasn't allow any transition period, to cope with both academic expectations and emotional wellbeing. I was just like, sorta sitting on a seesaw, and suddenly a big fat obese guy just decided to jump on it and boom, i flew to the mountain without any pre-notice.
and so, i struggled the starting period of my secondary life la. my family was so worried, and they were just so afraid that i am too stressed bla bla. and my point arrives: i swear that i hate parry hall (my previous hostel) for life. and i vowed to never return there. And i was right, i hated that place quite alot, cos i've had a terrible time there. Many bad things happened, and i told my teacher mentor, but she kinda doesn't believe me.. so i was quite upset. blahhh . not the point.
so i was just having a bad bad time even during O levels. and because i wasn't very healthy, and i was just emotionally unstable, i screwed up my O levels. (ok i didnt really did THAT badly but it's close enough)
I was damn damn sad lah, the few nights after i've gotten my scholarship, my mom was in singapore and i just couldn't bear it, i stayed out with her. And i will now courageously admit it, i just kept crying and crying and crying. I've never cried so much in years, but yeahp. Just keep crying.
(side track abit, i was damn damn happy i got into my college now. I purposely chose this college and i made the right choice, i'm just so happy in college, i totally transformed, and for the first time in 3 years, i feel like i'm living a normal life)
SO, from then on, i blamed parry hall for everything. It was because of all the shits i've gone through with this particular person, who pushed me all the way to the edge of emotional break down. screw that, i'm living a good life without her so yup. (: NOW, i admit lah, i'm just blaming parry for everything, but it just doesnt give me a very good impression la. cos it's the place where i've been through the most hardships in 17 years. (except for those times when i was in standard 5 and standard 6). bottom line, i just couldn't get use to the transition and all the stuffs.
-
yesterday, we were having lunch, karjun, wanfen, few of us parrians. and we suddenly came up with an idea, Project Parry 527! It's basically for all parrians , left Parry or not, to return to our first home in singapore on 27/5/2012, before this place is demolished, to live another evening like a parrian, just.. live it. Nothing fancy, but just to reminisce those old times that we will never get back anymore. C'mon, parry is gonna be demolished. gone forever.
then it struck me. I missed parry. no matter how much i hated it, i lived there for 2 years. and it's so damn significant because it's the first 2 years of my life on this island. so many significant things have happened in my life and yes, i missed it.
I miss, the most, the study hall. It is where i go every single day , to study, to talk to people, and everything. That place just brings back so many memories! It used to be the most crowded place during exam periods! It just hurts so much to see that parry is gonna be demolished soon, and the number of boarders still staying there is like, a quarter of the number 3 years ago? It's really really very upsetting. It just hurts to walk in there and realize that there's no one there anymore, where it once was the most crowded place ever. it hurts alot, you know.
the canteen. it's where we have our meals (duh). during sec 4, especially, we only allow ourselves approx 30mins to eat cos we needa study and all. throughout the day, we're just having no life la. and for me personally, i look forward to meal times the most. With wanfen and karjun. cos we will always talk alot of shit, and laugh and laugh at each other. and it's just so much fun. when we finish eating, boom, time to study again. but all the good memories in sec 4, canteen lah. ahha. it was also where i spend the night with my batchmates to make a pillow for our teacher mentor for teacher's day ! (: nice rightttt. ahhaha :D it's just, awesome!
the field. it's where i used to play soccer with my seniors! HAHA it's just so much fun. (: I used to look forward to friday and weekend's evening when we get to play soccer together! eventho i suck at soccer big time! It's so nice to play with the indonesian seniors cos they always let us score, :D :D and it kinda make me feel that the main point of the soccer game is to bond with us, and it's just so so nice :') it's also where we have alot of hostel events, the field is just the place la, for alot of games. and it's just so homely, the vast vast field. :D
special mentions to Reunion Soiree! It's 2011 Graduating Batch graduating event (: And it's one of the best event i've experienced. Aaron, my president of Parry Hall committee made my last experience in parry hall as an emcee so contented. he tried his best to plan the most celebrity-like entry for my partner and i. And the feeling is just so good, when all your juniors plan an event for you, the seniors, and you get to be part of the crew, for one last time. & it is one of the good events i've emceed, other than Fame. simply because i made my last contribution to parry hall, just the way i like it, and just the way i do best.
SO! parry hall, after all, it's still my home for 2 significant years of my life. it doesn't matter how many terrible experiences have pushed me away from this home, i just know that there will always be as much, if not more good experiences and good friends that will pull me back to this home. and i will miss this place. too much, true, i mean i've had the suckiest and shittiest moment there, but it forces me to grow up. you know, i'm like an ugle, out of shape pie dough, and parry hall is like a pie moulder that uses the most terrifying experiences to force me to be in shape, cut off all the hideous extra dough on me, moulds me into a better pie, fills me with more fillings, and send me into the oven, under high pressure, i'm obliged to be a better pie (person); (:
and after all the shaping and moulding, i'll become a pie that people will wanna buy! :D hahaha(:
PROJECT PARRY 527, LET'S MAKE IT HAPPEN! :D
ready, fellow parrians? let's return home!
27th may, we've locked your schedule. Your evening is parry's. Live it like a parrian, for one last evening.
yay!
kay done. hahaha showering, bye! (:
April 22, 2012
okay. hi.
1. i got gold for napfa.
but all of a sudden it doesn't seem that important anymore? cos ive got much more burning questions waiting to be answered. today, no actually since yesterday, im starting to feel like i'm the worst person on earth, and whatever i've been doing have been all wrong.
few weeks ago i got into this big fight with person X. i really don't understand why, i mean okay, i know what triggered X's anger. but, i didn't do it intentionally. i'm trying my best to not distract X from whatever X's been doing! (X, if you happen to read this, the word distract should tells you that it's you) I'm just reducing contact between the both of us because i don't want people to start saying that i'm wasting your time blabla. I mean it kinda hurts for people to call me a distraction and to blame X's unfortunate encounters on me, just because they think X spends too much time/effort with me. okay i will rightfully admit, X does spend alot of time for me to help me and everything, and i was stupid enough to not realize it lah. AND SO, now i finally realize, i am distancing myself away from X, get my point?
okay so all the "eh don't distract X la" died down, and here X is telling me that "you only look for me when you need me. i take friends very seriously." EXCUSE ME?!?!??! okay so i obediently explain every single thing to X to make sure X understands where i am from. I really don't know what to do, i mean i don't know if to you, am i a distraction or not, but at least that's what people say. So, to protect myself, and just in case if whatever they're saying is true, im trynna clear the line between us and make things easier. Can you please see the point? i'm trying to clear things up with you BECAUSE I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP OKAY. if it was another person (that i really don't care about) that came up to me with all the same shit X is giving me i will just (really), point middle finger la. okay very rude but, you get my point..
and then okay we cleared things up (or so what i naively thought). X even apologized for all the stuffs X said to me, and for making me upset. Okay yes sure, i'm fine with it. i thought we were okay. THEN TODAY, i sat next to X and X didn't even make eye contact with me. X totally disregarded my existence and talk to other people. You know that kinda feeling when people are listening and answering you BUT IN A VERY COLD WAY THAT THEY DON'T EVEN WANNA LOOK AT YOU?
yes, that is it. seriously, now what's wrong again?! i thought we patched things up?! do you know how awkward it was for me? can you please think on my behalf, i am doing every single damn thing i can to mend things between us and it hurts to see you not even trying, telling me that you can write a whole thesis about my mistakes.
i'm sick and injured and everything and i'm still trying all my best to think of the best way to achieve a win-win situation and i'm sorry, but i really don't see you trying la.
i really thought things were okay between us but look at what you gave me just now. X is a friend i really care about and there is no way i wanna lose X as my friend. sometimes when we just, don't click for awhile, and i just don't like you, you just don't like me, i distant myself away. seriously, i don't get which part did i get it wrong.
please omg, X, stop confusing me. if youre pissed, say it.
now, Y. another person. Y is another person that i really care about too! I appreaciate all the help Y has given me and all the undivided attention (what i thought) . really, which is why, i'm trying to treat you the best that i can to sort of, repay . BUT THEN, somebody here misunderstood and no matter how many times i clear things up, Y just won't believe me. I am making it very very clear that we are just friends. i appreciate Y alot, with all my heart, but i'm equally sure that i have no feelings for Y. And Y just had to keep pestering me to give an answer. "if you don't like me why are you being so nice and sweet?" , "if you have no feelings why are so desperately trying to friendzone me?" EXCUSE ME my dear Y, it is precisely because i have no other feelings for you, and i actually have already considered you might misunderstand that is the very reason why i make things clear between us, to friendzone, TO ASSURE YOU THAT I DON'T, AND WON'T HAVE EXTRA FEELINGS FOR YOU.
and by that, i thought you got my point and you will not misunderstand and will not have feelings for me too!!!! come on man, we all know you deserve a girl so much better okay. even if this sentence sort of downgrade me and make me sound like a person not good enough, i acknowledge that fact la.
here, you said you don't wanna feel "feel emotionally attached to anyone because if i do and they don't, i get hurt" okay, point granted I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND, REALLY. protective mechanism right.
but then, to start off with, i've already done my part (i swear) to make it clear and sure that i don't and won't have feelings for you. As in, minimally, i won't start to have feelings first. your part, if you wanna start first there's nothing i can do about it really. and now you're complaining that i'm misbehaving myself to confuse you. WTHHHH i made it clear beforehand I MADE IT CLEAR BEFOREHAND I MADE IT CLEAR BEFOREHANDDDDD!!
AND HONESTLY, i really don't think whatever i'm doing is confusing at all.
omg please Y, you're the few person that i really care for, you're like a good friend, please don't do this to me okay, and whatever it is, i apologized to you already can we please be okay? and make it very clear that we're okay and we totlly understand our relationship- FRIENDSHIP?
disclaimer: to both X and Y, if youre reading this, i know i sound very harsh here, but please get my point. I really really care for you guys okay please, you're my good good friend. please really, do try, at least, to understand.. (:
k done ranting. bye.
1. i got gold for napfa.
but all of a sudden it doesn't seem that important anymore? cos ive got much more burning questions waiting to be answered. today, no actually since yesterday, im starting to feel like i'm the worst person on earth, and whatever i've been doing have been all wrong.
few weeks ago i got into this big fight with person X. i really don't understand why, i mean okay, i know what triggered X's anger. but, i didn't do it intentionally. i'm trying my best to not distract X from whatever X's been doing! (X, if you happen to read this, the word distract should tells you that it's you) I'm just reducing contact between the both of us because i don't want people to start saying that i'm wasting your time blabla. I mean it kinda hurts for people to call me a distraction and to blame X's unfortunate encounters on me, just because they think X spends too much time/effort with me. okay i will rightfully admit, X does spend alot of time for me to help me and everything, and i was stupid enough to not realize it lah. AND SO, now i finally realize, i am distancing myself away from X, get my point?
okay so all the "eh don't distract X la" died down, and here X is telling me that "you only look for me when you need me. i take friends very seriously." EXCUSE ME?!?!??! okay so i obediently explain every single thing to X to make sure X understands where i am from. I really don't know what to do, i mean i don't know if to you, am i a distraction or not, but at least that's what people say. So, to protect myself, and just in case if whatever they're saying is true, im trynna clear the line between us and make things easier. Can you please see the point? i'm trying to clear things up with you BECAUSE I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP OKAY. if it was another person (that i really don't care about) that came up to me with all the same shit X is giving me i will just (really), point middle finger la. okay very rude but, you get my point..
and then okay we cleared things up (or so what i naively thought). X even apologized for all the stuffs X said to me, and for making me upset. Okay yes sure, i'm fine with it. i thought we were okay. THEN TODAY, i sat next to X and X didn't even make eye contact with me. X totally disregarded my existence and talk to other people. You know that kinda feeling when people are listening and answering you BUT IN A VERY COLD WAY THAT THEY DON'T EVEN WANNA LOOK AT YOU?
yes, that is it. seriously, now what's wrong again?! i thought we patched things up?! do you know how awkward it was for me? can you please think on my behalf, i am doing every single damn thing i can to mend things between us and it hurts to see you not even trying, telling me that you can write a whole thesis about my mistakes.
i'm sick and injured and everything and i'm still trying all my best to think of the best way to achieve a win-win situation and i'm sorry, but i really don't see you trying la.
i really thought things were okay between us but look at what you gave me just now. X is a friend i really care about and there is no way i wanna lose X as my friend. sometimes when we just, don't click for awhile, and i just don't like you, you just don't like me, i distant myself away. seriously, i don't get which part did i get it wrong.
please omg, X, stop confusing me. if youre pissed, say it.
now, Y. another person. Y is another person that i really care about too! I appreaciate all the help Y has given me and all the undivided attention (what i thought) . really, which is why, i'm trying to treat you the best that i can to sort of, repay . BUT THEN, somebody here misunderstood and no matter how many times i clear things up, Y just won't believe me. I am making it very very clear that we are just friends. i appreciate Y alot, with all my heart, but i'm equally sure that i have no feelings for Y. And Y just had to keep pestering me to give an answer. "if you don't like me why are you being so nice and sweet?" , "if you have no feelings why are so desperately trying to friendzone me?" EXCUSE ME my dear Y, it is precisely because i have no other feelings for you, and i actually have already considered you might misunderstand that is the very reason why i make things clear between us, to friendzone, TO ASSURE YOU THAT I DON'T, AND WON'T HAVE EXTRA FEELINGS FOR YOU.
and by that, i thought you got my point and you will not misunderstand and will not have feelings for me too!!!! come on man, we all know you deserve a girl so much better okay. even if this sentence sort of downgrade me and make me sound like a person not good enough, i acknowledge that fact la.
here, you said you don't wanna feel "feel emotionally attached to anyone because if i do and they don't, i get hurt" okay, point granted I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND, REALLY. protective mechanism right.
but then, to start off with, i've already done my part (i swear) to make it clear and sure that i don't and won't have feelings for you. As in, minimally, i won't start to have feelings first. your part, if you wanna start first there's nothing i can do about it really. and now you're complaining that i'm misbehaving myself to confuse you. WTHHHH i made it clear beforehand I MADE IT CLEAR BEFOREHAND I MADE IT CLEAR BEFOREHANDDDDD!!
AND HONESTLY, i really don't think whatever i'm doing is confusing at all.
omg please Y, you're the few person that i really care for, you're like a good friend, please don't do this to me okay, and whatever it is, i apologized to you already can we please be okay? and make it very clear that we're okay and we totlly understand our relationship- FRIENDSHIP?
disclaimer: to both X and Y, if youre reading this, i know i sound very harsh here, but please get my point. I really really care for you guys okay please, you're my good good friend. please really, do try, at least, to understand.. (:
k done ranting. bye.
April 20, 2012
it's getting deadly
ahh, so tomorrow's napfa day, which simply means the deadly words: FITNESS TEST.
and today we had pe, so i was (stubbornly) trynna improve my standing board jump by that miserable 5cm or so just to freaking get a silver :/ Mr Singh kept emphasizing on EXPLOSIVENESS and here we go..
...go...
-.
and JUMP!
okay i landed on a C grade FOR ONCE, but my hand were behind my legs so it's not counted. facepalm! ):
and if that's not enough, my legs trembled the whole pe after that. So at first i thought like, aiya 2 hours it will recover.
BUT THEN. when i came back, and saw this freaking insect at my place, roomie and i launch into a really mild war with it, (i ran around the most la you know i HATE INSECTS) and it was so painful for my dear calf. ):
i quickly applied ten thousand layers of med and cream on my calf. PRAY PRAY PRAY TOMORROW IT WILL BE READY FOR JUST ONE SHOT OF SB JUMP, AND SHUTTER RUN.
pleaseeee ): lemme at least get a pretty silver. YOU SEE, i know you people out there will say things like GET MC AND REST. DO YOUR TEST WHEN YOU RECOVER. point is, it won't recover very soon, it's a long term thing and the only way to let it fully recover is to NOT DO SPORTS AT ALL FOR WEEKS! which is not gonna be possible without a long term mc. SO, why not long term mc?
1. abit troublesome to get it from the hospital, since its not insured, and my parents are not around i dont wanna do everything myself.. (like, getting into the hospital for long term mc .. i don't think i wanna do it myself)
2. i don't wanna miss out alot on touch rugby. sitting at the bleachers every training is just SO SAD, plus it wastes time. ):
okay i cannot come out w anymore pointers but do you get my point?
arggh. i think im gonna get a bottle of H2O tomorrow to boost abit.. :/
okay i know whatever i'm doing now is NOT gonna help my body, it includes:-
1. keep forgetting to eat sufficient apples
2. engage myself into physical activities
3. sleep late
4. irregular mealtimes, irregular MEALS
5. shower at night
omg my mom is gonna scold me when she sees this ): sorry mom.
but the thing is.. i just wanna get napfa over and done with la, after that, i will rest all i need okay?!
PLUS, today was actually an okay day, until my friend told me something very very heart wrenching.. like how the first impression i gave people wasn't very good (okay maybe kinda terrible, make it VERY terrible)
yupps.
i was kinda affected by his words, but he said he found out i was VERY nice and he feels TOTALLY different now! :D at least that's a good point.. but still. something to work on my first impression, hmm.
and when i came back at 5 plus, i just showered and knock out, sleeping until 630pm. woaah.
too long a nap yes indeed. and i was actually planning to go grab like those BIG PINT ice cream with my good friend, but we realised (so rational) that we might break curfew and i've napfa tomorrow, PLUS i shouldn't be very mobile tonight.
SO YUPP, plan cancelled.. ):
saddddd. but what i want most for now is for my calf to be okay tomorrow.
Dear calf, you can hurt all you want after napfa tomorrow, i will bring you to the doctor okay i promise. but please don't hurt me too much tomorrow..
God, please help me to endure the pain tomorrow, pleasee.
ahhh. oky time to catch up on my work. BYE!
and today we had pe, so i was (stubbornly) trynna improve my standing board jump by that miserable 5cm or so just to freaking get a silver :/ Mr Singh kept emphasizing on EXPLOSIVENESS and here we go..
...go...
-.
and JUMP!
okay i landed on a C grade FOR ONCE, but my hand were behind my legs so it's not counted. facepalm! ):
and if that's not enough, my legs trembled the whole pe after that. So at first i thought like, aiya 2 hours it will recover.
BUT THEN. when i came back, and saw this freaking insect at my place, roomie and i launch into a really mild war with it, (i ran around the most la you know i HATE INSECTS) and it was so painful for my dear calf. ):
i quickly applied ten thousand layers of med and cream on my calf. PRAY PRAY PRAY TOMORROW IT WILL BE READY FOR JUST ONE SHOT OF SB JUMP, AND SHUTTER RUN.
pleaseeee ): lemme at least get a pretty silver. YOU SEE, i know you people out there will say things like GET MC AND REST. DO YOUR TEST WHEN YOU RECOVER. point is, it won't recover very soon, it's a long term thing and the only way to let it fully recover is to NOT DO SPORTS AT ALL FOR WEEKS! which is not gonna be possible without a long term mc. SO, why not long term mc?
1. abit troublesome to get it from the hospital, since its not insured, and my parents are not around i dont wanna do everything myself.. (like, getting into the hospital for long term mc .. i don't think i wanna do it myself)
2. i don't wanna miss out alot on touch rugby. sitting at the bleachers every training is just SO SAD, plus it wastes time. ):
okay i cannot come out w anymore pointers but do you get my point?
arggh. i think im gonna get a bottle of H2O tomorrow to boost abit.. :/
okay i know whatever i'm doing now is NOT gonna help my body, it includes:-
1. keep forgetting to eat sufficient apples
2. engage myself into physical activities
3. sleep late
4. irregular mealtimes, irregular MEALS
5. shower at night
omg my mom is gonna scold me when she sees this ): sorry mom.
but the thing is.. i just wanna get napfa over and done with la, after that, i will rest all i need okay?!
PLUS, today was actually an okay day, until my friend told me something very very heart wrenching.. like how the first impression i gave people wasn't very good (okay maybe kinda terrible, make it VERY terrible)
yupps.
i was kinda affected by his words, but he said he found out i was VERY nice and he feels TOTALLY different now! :D at least that's a good point.. but still. something to work on my first impression, hmm.
and when i came back at 5 plus, i just showered and knock out, sleeping until 630pm. woaah.
too long a nap yes indeed. and i was actually planning to go grab like those BIG PINT ice cream with my good friend, but we realised (so rational) that we might break curfew and i've napfa tomorrow, PLUS i shouldn't be very mobile tonight.
SO YUPP, plan cancelled.. ):
saddddd. but what i want most for now is for my calf to be okay tomorrow.
Dear calf, you can hurt all you want after napfa tomorrow, i will bring you to the doctor okay i promise. but please don't hurt me too much tomorrow..
God, please help me to endure the pain tomorrow, pleasee.
ahhh. oky time to catch up on my work. BYE!
April 14, 2012
weakling
a quick short update!
just about 2 weeks ago i injured my back, and i continued to injured my calf, thigh, shoulder etc..
to the extent that yesterday i couldn't play touch because it hurts so much... ):
and yesterday, a series of event happened, which made me super down, aih.
and yup, this morning i woke up and brought myself to see the chinese doctor, you know the chinese physician kinda thing..
TURNED OUT,
i was much more serious than i thought.
My spine is born striaght, which is very much different from the rest of the people, who usually have arched spines (i think). So i'm very prone to back injuries, for which i had it right after a vigorous 4km run and falls from touch training.. ):
because i didn't really take good care of it, and recently i've been practising jumps for my fitness test, which further hurt my calfs , and it's hurting my back even more! PLUS, muscle ache on my thigh, ahhh. pain!
SO!
i had a weird spine (?), so i'm prone to injuries, and because i stubbornly continued to train and practise for fitness test, so i kinda screw my body up ):
the doctor can even tell that i have very irregular meal times, drink too much cold drinks, and sleep too late, shower too much.. etc (totally, WOAH, so shocked)
my body is already very very weak, so my injuries cannot heal in time, and my flu too, is not going away .
ah, now i'm in agony and pain most of the time, which sucks ):
okay okay im gonna pull myself together and continue on with my piled work. have been slcking too much, tsk tsk! WORKKKK!
okay byeee (:
just about 2 weeks ago i injured my back, and i continued to injured my calf, thigh, shoulder etc..
to the extent that yesterday i couldn't play touch because it hurts so much... ):
and yesterday, a series of event happened, which made me super down, aih.
and yup, this morning i woke up and brought myself to see the chinese doctor, you know the chinese physician kinda thing..
TURNED OUT,
i was much more serious than i thought.
My spine is born striaght, which is very much different from the rest of the people, who usually have arched spines (i think). So i'm very prone to back injuries, for which i had it right after a vigorous 4km run and falls from touch training.. ):
because i didn't really take good care of it, and recently i've been practising jumps for my fitness test, which further hurt my calfs , and it's hurting my back even more! PLUS, muscle ache on my thigh, ahhh. pain!
SO!
i had a weird spine (?), so i'm prone to injuries, and because i stubbornly continued to train and practise for fitness test, so i kinda screw my body up ):
the doctor can even tell that i have very irregular meal times, drink too much cold drinks, and sleep too late, shower too much.. etc (totally, WOAH, so shocked)
my body is already very very weak, so my injuries cannot heal in time, and my flu too, is not going away .
ah, now i'm in agony and pain most of the time, which sucks ):
okay okay im gonna pull myself together and continue on with my piled work. have been slcking too much, tsk tsk! WORKKKK!
okay byeee (:
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